Having a spare time – Contemplating stuffs – Posting on blogs – Another spare time – Posting frequently -BOOM! BUSY BUSY DAYS – No post for months – A short spare time – Blogging and get confused how to start the post.

I do suck on basa-basi, so..

I actually have nothing to say. Now I’m actually is working on some stuffs. Multitasking, honestly. Academic papers and organization responsibility.

Whatever. So, let’s talk about something..

Christmas?
Yes, as much as Christmas get me reminded of home, of family.. That’s how much I’m missing my mom, dad, and sister. Craving their presence around me in this – quoting Justin Bieber- most wonderful time of the year, yet there’s no such thing as Christmas holiday. Even 2 days after Christmas I should present my final International Relation Theory’s paper. January 2nd 2011, I’ll face the final exam. But, to be honest, it’s not that bad. Either I’ve been familiar with non-stop working feeling since the beginning of third term or I just lose the holiday ambiance, I honestly don’t take this as burden. As long as I’m surrounded by my family and friends, who cares?
Ah, I somehow get reminded of how my mom respond towards my complaint of how hard is college life (UI IR student life). The smartest kids around Indonesia are here. I love them, like so much. But, there.. I feel the urgency to do better and better. Good way to spend the teenager years, right? But, I can’t help it that this non-stop competition is tiring me.
But I just like how my mom reminds me that this is where I belong to. This is the right place for me to grow up and excel my talents, my interest.

My mom didn’t go to good universities, but she’s one of the wisest person I’ve ever met. Like what she said, ‘Wisdom is grace’.

Anyway, I gotta go. Papers are waiting to be done.
Oh, to make this post special, I’d like to give some spoiler about my life next year. So, there is a IR freshman who’s well known for his sixth sense. AND HE SAID, ok my love life will find some enlightenment by the beginning of 2012.

Fingers crossed.

Apparently, this how the 3rd term is like. Hectic. But, charming.

Seven IR classes? Exhausting yet beautiful. I’m still always awed with the studies, and the assignments drag me to ocean of knowledge, enriching my mind.

Crap. Did I start writing a poem for my crush into academic stuffs?

I shall really fall in love with a guy soon, a real one. Not just an author of IR books or someone I have no idea how’s his voice like cause I never talked to him.

Anyway, just come here to clean up the dust in my blog WHICH IS STALKED BY A JUNIOR. CONGRATULATION, NOW YOU KNOW MY FIRST TERM’S GPA! *bete sendiri* *padahal salah sendiri*

Gotta go. Nye’s waiting to be peeked.

Passion. Something I’ve been searching for.
I used to grumble when someone’s stating ‘do what you love’. I always consider it as a statement of rebellion, the wanting of not to be under control. Seriously, isn’t freedom related to chaotic tightly?

But, I just feel the same ways recently. I feel impassionate while doing things lately. The activities I’m involved isn’t as great as I’ve thought before. They are way too boring.

I don’t feel like I belong here. This is lame and I want to resign from all this business.

Until a best friend of mine, gave me her shoulder, lend me her arms, just for a hug.

I know I’ve been so terrible. And I know I’ve been irresponsible with things lately. Maybe I forgot putting on the focus

Or simply losing my passion.

If I was passionate about these stuffs, why this is all suddenly felt like such a waste of time?

Can we reuse passion?

PS: Hana is a freaking smart girl. She got 91 for Introduction of International Relations Class which is held by Mbak Evi Fitriani. This time, for the sake of other’s living.. We do support you for FK UI 2011. Shoo shoo!

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This time, I lost. Like all business I’ve taken is for the sake of CV etc. And that sucks.

Why should I give a damn about all this. I used to be oh-whatsoever with all of these stuffs.. And the strangest thing is, this is what I always wanted.

Maybe I judge things badly

Or maybe, I just force myself to fit in places I never contemplate before.

So, in this idle time I maybe choosing reading book. It’s been a long long long time ago that I have time for getting sink into tales and narratives. Good night people! See you in another hectic yet productive week!

PS: I got new crush. HAHA!

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You entered: Florida Petresia Andriana

There are 23 letters in your name.
Those 23 letters total to 112
There are 11 vowels and 12 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 3

A Soul Urge number of 3 means:
With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.

You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.

The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn’t appreciate having these pointed out.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

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You tried to make a move, and in a moment you were about to step behind. “This is way too impossible”, your self talk. But one day you read a saying “Nothing’s impossible. The word itself already said ‘I’M POSSIBLE’”. You reread the sentence over and over. You knew, you’ll be possible. The dream is possible to be real.

You finally did that. Not the finish line of victory, but you knew you’re already one step ahead. The efforts are really well paid off. ‘Life challenge me’, another self talk. You smirk

Reality hits. Oh, smacks you on the face.

You thought life will ask you for another running competition. With no information, it happened to be a boxing match.

Reality hits. Oh, smack you, right on the face.

You’re bleeding. You failed. You fell. You failed.

“This is different. I lost the magic apostrophe and relieving space, which turns impossible to i’m possible” your mind said so.

Suddenly universe conspired, to meet you with a friend, had a late lunch with a nice chit chat. A talk about failure. About getting up, and keep fighting.

And you happened to read a post, another victory, which is well known as history. Because the person had been through struggle.

“Y U NO STOP TELLING ME TO MOVE ON, UNIVERSE?” you yell at the universe.

Universe keep quiet. You cried on someone shoulder. A friend’s.

Subsequently you get enlightened. Universe can’t talk. God talk. And God teach.

He teaches, He leads. He loves you, and He know the fact. You need to take a test, to prove you deserve the next level.

Later you read this post again, you know God is faithful.

He is already. And He stays so.

So, after hectic weeks with frantic schedules and deadlines I finally could have a break! Phew! Actually there’s still a class tomorrow at 2pm, so we can bring forward the week end to Thursday night!

And the good thing is.. I had fun! I wasn’t able to focus at the last one hour of my PIHI (Introduction of International Relations). Been stressing for weeks, I realized it’s been a while that I didn’t catch any good movie. The latest one was.. Ah, Green Hornet!

So, I asked my friend Monic whether she wanted to go or not. She’s also busy preparing and rehearsing for a debate competition, that’s why she knocked her head surely

So, make it simple.. I watched King’s Speech with Monic and Garlan. Here is my review: MIND BLOWING. I love the plot, the acting, the sound effect (ain’t it adorable to hear the high heel’s knocking the wood floor? ), and off course the story which is adopted from a real life story of George VI!

I thank God we didn’t pick the No Strings Attached. Ok, so that happened last night. And today, I know it’s the real Friday Night, but as another assignments run after me.. I should spend my time typing and reading. Hahaha, I know.. This is kinda pathetic..

So, have a great weekend folks! Tommorow, I’ll be having a meeting, France course, and hopefully MBJ, an event to thank (or revenge) our seniors :p

PS: I’ve just realised… It’s like my 3rd time having lunch at Bloc. Somebody’s getting gauler.. Watch out peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

But, there came a little accident. Danu couldn’t drive me until in front of my aunt’s house because the portal had been put down. Walking alone was scary cause it was 2.30 am and there was nobody. And, like 50 meters away from my aunt’s house there’s this coo-coo.. Showing up his dick on the corner of the street. I was shocked, walking faster, and running!!! I lost my breath as I get home. Man, I never ever walked alone at night again at that street!

I couldn’t sleep until 3 am, and thank God finally awake at 8 am. That’s already late because I had appointment at 9 am. I was in rush, catching Transjakarta and walking as fast as I can. The meeting was done earlier, so I could hang out for like an hour with my friends at Sency for having meals and then went straight home. All I could do is just sleeping like a dead man until the next day.

Sunday morning? I cooked omelette for my breakfast and straight to JPCC. The service was so blessing me, I thank God for this chance.

and that’s all for my weekend! Now, I back dealing with assignments and papers, facing another productive week. Yea, in terms of having positive mind I now start changing ‘hectic’ into ‘productive’. So, have a blessed days ahead guys. Sorry for this curcol post!